This video was so sweet, and I thought this was quite a tribute to fathers and the role they play in their daughters lives, no matter who they are.
Pursued
by Amanda LaFave
January 18, 2009
"Jesus, love and surrender I bring
Jesus, no more to fear do I cling
And maybe, maybe this time
I'm ready to give, give you it all
Creator,
My life, my love
I want to freely give to you
Savior,
my hope, my strength
Oh how I long to be pursued
So take me, just as I am
I'm all for you
Jesus, be the only love I seek
Jesus, your Holy Spirit's transforming me
And maybe, maybe this time
I'm ready to give, give you it all
Creator,
My life, my love
I want to freely give to you
Savior,
my hope, my strength
Oh how I long to be pursued
So take me, just as I am
I'm all for you
My life, my love.
My hope, my strength.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you."
by Amanda LaFave
January 18, 2009
"Jesus, love and surrender I bring
Jesus, no more to fear do I cling
And maybe, maybe this time
I'm ready to give, give you it all
Creator,
My life, my love
I want to freely give to you
Savior,
my hope, my strength
Oh how I long to be pursued
So take me, just as I am
I'm all for you
Jesus, be the only love I seek
Jesus, your Holy Spirit's transforming me
And maybe, maybe this time
I'm ready to give, give you it all
Creator,
My life, my love
I want to freely give to you
Savior,
my hope, my strength
Oh how I long to be pursued
So take me, just as I am
I'm all for you
My life, my love.
My hope, my strength.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you.
I'm all for you."
So I'm relaxing and meditating on an amazing weekend where I saw God show up.
I'm in awe of God's love for me and for how awesome He is. I tend to stuggle with post trip blues, so I'm feeling a little down because the trip felt so short. Sometimes it can be so weird coming home to a quiet house instead of the 250 faces you become accustomed to seeing, but all things must come to an end I suppose. It was so great to see how the youth and leaders were pushed to think, experience and discover God. Life becomes so busy that a planned weekend that is set aside to spend time with God and to learn more about who He is, can be just what we need sometimes.
I'm learning that maybe it's time to start acting. I always feel so torn between wondering if God really has me where He wants me or if fear is holding me back from something greater that He might have in store. Maybe I need to stop waiting for details to fall into place. I'm young, I'm single, and I am more than able and capable to do big things with my God. I think sometimes I desire the settling down part so much that it might blind me from what else there could be.
So this is my prayer (also notice my first two songs on my playlist are new!):
"So take me as You find me
All my fears & failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender (I surrender)
Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave"
~Hillsong
My God is great and big, and can perform miracles. He can do things even more abundantly amazing than I could ever imagine. My God can bring me life to the full. My God can help use me to find a set of keys for a friend under quite a few inches of snow and lots of ground to cover. My God is amazing and I am just so thankful that He shows up, and that He loves me. That He understands me when I feel alone and anxious, that He can take my burdens and pain, and promise to help me through it. My God can take away all of the anxiety I feel, and make me feel like a new creation. My God can do ALL things, My God is ALL things. I just praise Him for all He is, all He has done, and All He will do.
I'm in awe of God's love for me and for how awesome He is. I tend to stuggle with post trip blues, so I'm feeling a little down because the trip felt so short. Sometimes it can be so weird coming home to a quiet house instead of the 250 faces you become accustomed to seeing, but all things must come to an end I suppose. It was so great to see how the youth and leaders were pushed to think, experience and discover God. Life becomes so busy that a planned weekend that is set aside to spend time with God and to learn more about who He is, can be just what we need sometimes.
I'm learning that maybe it's time to start acting. I always feel so torn between wondering if God really has me where He wants me or if fear is holding me back from something greater that He might have in store. Maybe I need to stop waiting for details to fall into place. I'm young, I'm single, and I am more than able and capable to do big things with my God. I think sometimes I desire the settling down part so much that it might blind me from what else there could be.
So this is my prayer (also notice my first two songs on my playlist are new!):
"So take me as You find me
All my fears & failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender (I surrender)
Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave"
~Hillsong
My God is great and big, and can perform miracles. He can do things even more abundantly amazing than I could ever imagine. My God can bring me life to the full. My God can help use me to find a set of keys for a friend under quite a few inches of snow and lots of ground to cover. My God is amazing and I am just so thankful that He shows up, and that He loves me. That He understands me when I feel alone and anxious, that He can take my burdens and pain, and promise to help me through it. My God can take away all of the anxiety I feel, and make me feel like a new creation. My God can do ALL things, My God is ALL things. I just praise Him for all He is, all He has done, and All He will do.
So I thought it would be fun to look at some recaps of 2008.
Let's see... I'm having trouble remembering things, looking back through pics for help...
January...ummm... Probably was starting to be conned into the 08 Namibia trip which I swore I wasn't going on.
Also was our winter youth retreat with the youth group! It was such a neat weekend for me, to see the kids bonding and finally seeing a hint of unity amidst our diverse group of kids.
February... SJ's 19th Birthday! We took a road trip to Boston to Celebrate.
March... 11th- My dad's bday, 31st- My Mom's bday!!!
April.. I took some big steps in upgrading my car :)
May... This was a very eventful month and I was probably thinking, it's been a year since I graduated from BBC, what should I do with my life?
I also went for a roadtrip down to Florida with the Shaw's! :) I remember long car rides, complete with lots of Sister Hazel and Bruce Springstein, being back at Disney for the first time since I was five, and having a blast spending time with a really great family. Oh yeah and the palm trees. LOVED them.
May was also a time for a visit down to BBC to see my friend Shirley Graduate. It was also the 30 hour famine which was a time to see the kids sleep in cardboard boxes and put their faith in action by bringing sandwiches to the homeless in the streets of Nashua. It also ended with a church service where the kids shared and Dieter was in town to preach and put so many things in perspective.
June... I turned 21 and was overwhelmed with the amount of love I felt from family, friends, coworkers and students.
June also was the end of the school year at my first "real job." I was thinking how blessed I was that God put such an amazing little boy in my life to work with, because I am definetly not the same person because of him in so many ways. June also held a random trip to Maine and a memorable walk with my grandfather, and lots of 21st bday outings. :)
July... Oh Namibia. I really didn't think I would be back there. I didn't think I would be a team leader again. But life sure surprises you. :)
August- Also a very busy and memorable month. It started out with a roadtrip to boston with kayleena, a dinner cruise with the fam, Andrew's 14th birthday and my first patriot's game!
September- A new school year. I also made a big decision to go back to school, and somehow went from baptist school to catholic, I just want to cover all my bases. ;) We had our labor day kick off party, SJ got his white lab coat, had my first and last King Kone of the season, and took a roadtrip to Vermont so my mom could have a break.
October- Corn Maze, Pumpkin Festival, and seeing old friends.
November- Thanksgiving!!!! Always a crazy time to get together with family! ;) Then there was the yearly turkey bowl and I got bangs for the first time since I was about 8, which therby followed lots of sarah palin comments. Then our crazy black friday outing.
December- Ice storms, Power outages, my Nana... :) Oh boy, let's remember the good times, like Parties and friends and our Savior's birth.
It's been quite a year. Happy 2009 Everyone! Looking forward to many amazing and crazy things to come! :)
Let's see... I'm having trouble remembering things, looking back through pics for help...
January...ummm... Probably was starting to be conned into the 08 Namibia trip which I swore I wasn't going on.
Also was our winter youth retreat with the youth group! It was such a neat weekend for me, to see the kids bonding and finally seeing a hint of unity amidst our diverse group of kids.
February... SJ's 19th Birthday! We took a road trip to Boston to Celebrate.
March... 11th- My dad's bday, 31st- My Mom's bday!!!
April.. I took some big steps in upgrading my car :)
May... This was a very eventful month and I was probably thinking, it's been a year since I graduated from BBC, what should I do with my life?
I also went for a roadtrip down to Florida with the Shaw's! :) I remember long car rides, complete with lots of Sister Hazel and Bruce Springstein, being back at Disney for the first time since I was five, and having a blast spending time with a really great family. Oh yeah and the palm trees. LOVED them.
May was also a time for a visit down to BBC to see my friend Shirley Graduate. It was also the 30 hour famine which was a time to see the kids sleep in cardboard boxes and put their faith in action by bringing sandwiches to the homeless in the streets of Nashua. It also ended with a church service where the kids shared and Dieter was in town to preach and put so many things in perspective.
June... I turned 21 and was overwhelmed with the amount of love I felt from family, friends, coworkers and students.
June also was the end of the school year at my first "real job." I was thinking how blessed I was that God put such an amazing little boy in my life to work with, because I am definetly not the same person because of him in so many ways. June also held a random trip to Maine and a memorable walk with my grandfather, and lots of 21st bday outings. :)
July... Oh Namibia. I really didn't think I would be back there. I didn't think I would be a team leader again. But life sure surprises you. :)
August- Also a very busy and memorable month. It started out with a roadtrip to boston with kayleena, a dinner cruise with the fam, Andrew's 14th birthday and my first patriot's game!
September- A new school year. I also made a big decision to go back to school, and somehow went from baptist school to catholic, I just want to cover all my bases. ;) We had our labor day kick off party, SJ got his white lab coat, had my first and last King Kone of the season, and took a roadtrip to Vermont so my mom could have a break.
October- Corn Maze, Pumpkin Festival, and seeing old friends.
November- Thanksgiving!!!! Always a crazy time to get together with family! ;) Then there was the yearly turkey bowl and I got bangs for the first time since I was about 8, which therby followed lots of sarah palin comments. Then our crazy black friday outing.
December- Ice storms, Power outages, my Nana... :) Oh boy, let's remember the good times, like Parties and friends and our Savior's birth.
It's been quite a year. Happy 2009 Everyone! Looking forward to many amazing and crazy things to come! :)
No one knows what the future holds
Except the one who made it all
But it's alright with me
maybe my dreams just aren't meant to be.
I'm too young or maybe too old
to know what this life is about
But faith is what always pulls me through
The doors are wide open now.
I need to start writing and playing again. But I'm really thinking about the next couple of years. What do I want to see happen? How does God want me to spend these next couple of years? I know we are not guaranteed anything, but I really don't think there is anything wrong with having an idea or dreaming.
So many options. Like this website:
http://www.teachabroad.com/search.cfm
I looked into Namibia and Greece and there are so many options, some short term, some long. Some I'm not qualified for yet. But I don't know if I could honestly say I really want to go, part of me does, but then the other part is, what about my family? What about my friends and all the people I love, how do you just leave all of that?
I'm concerned because as of now, there are no class being offered next year that fit my program. :( So then there is the question of transferring, taking the year off, joining the army. haha just kidding on the last one. I just really don't want to be in school forever. I want to get my bachelor's then maybe my master's. I want to teach or work solely with children who have special needs.
The options are endless and at some point I need to remember that I should let nothing hold me back. I need to just run towards Jesus and He will guide me from there. No matter what anyone thinks or no matter how much I want certain people to always be close by. Maybe sometimes when you let go of all the other things, maybe just maybe I could be more brave.
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