For the next few days, I want to make posts about my dreams. I actually started a post tonight that was perfect material to be apart of the book I want to write someday. So yeah my first dream is I want to publish a book, and I started writing it tonight :-) It's really fun to come up with chapter titles, and to just remember details of points in my life. It's going to be about my story... the good, the bad, the lessons, and the God that was with me in every step... even when I couldn't see it. I don't know if an almost 21 year old has enough knowledge to publish a book anytime soon, but I'm gonna work at it.

So dream #1... God's given me a desire to write. Whether in my journal, songs, personal essays for school. So we'll see what happens.

PS: The reason for tonight's post and the next few to follow, are because God has been changing me and I want to share it. A couple of months ago I was blogging about how pointless dreams are, and how I don't believe in them. Praise God that I'm dreaming again, and that I'm beginning to have enough hope that my dreams are possible.

Here's what I wrote back in the beginning of September:

I've been thinking a lot about the whole dream question. I had an amazing talk with Pastor Darin about dreams last week.

I'm trying to change my view of them... I guess I have a very cynical view of dreams at the moment. Here it is... Why dream? Because dreaming only gets your hopes up about something that might never happen. Wow. Seeing that in writing makes me sound like I'm lacking a lot of hope. So I guess I'm LEARNING to dream. I think I get scared to dream because I tend to hold too tightly to them, because when I want something, I want it.

Something Pastor Darin said that has stuck with me... "Sometimes it's not the dream that's wrong, it's just the details you have planned." <-or something to that effect. It just struck me.

Trusting in God... Okay, ready for the honest Amanda? I'm struggling with this. I'm refiguring out what my dreams are, and figuring out what God's plans are. But I really think that God gives us the passions and desires that we each have to be able to dream and use them for His glory.
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So Praise God that I've been moving away from the "why dream?" camp and more on the side of what I had written in my last sentence. That God gives us passions and desires to have dreams so we could use them for His glory.

Goodnight and sweet dreams ;-)