So I pretty much had an awesome week :-) In fact I think it was the most relaxing and fun break I have had to date. It's funny for the first time ever I didn't worry about when I would see people, I just kept praying and asked God that His will be done with who I wanted to see. I got to spend a lot of time with those I wanted to see, and got to see people I didn't think I was gonna see at all :-) it's cool how God works, and how good it feels when you trust in Him. I laughed so much this week and I just had so much fun being home. I just love being around those I love and it was good not to feel the time crunch I normally feel when I am home... I hope I can take what I learned and apply it to my other breaks. here are some pictures from my week. My favorite ones are when I had a sleep over with my pastor's girls. One of the girls made me the cutest cup with dog ears and a note saying "hi amanda" and another made me a cake that said "welcome team leader manda" :-) We also watched the movie dreamer... such a cute movie, and Bethany Dillon's song "Dreamer" was in the credits so I was excited.
Alyssa and I had some great conversation on the ride back regarding something I learned in Pastor Darin's sermon today, about being scared to be who we are... I find it's the hardest around people I love most. sometimes I feel like a turtle.... :-) horrible analogy I know, but I find that it is so hard for me at times to just be me. I will be all outgoing around some people yet I will completley hide in my shell out of fear of looking stupid around others... sticking my head out of the shell when I desire to be loved or accepted but not sure if I will recieve it in return is a vulnerable place to be in, which is why I find much comfort in silence and hiding :-/ hmmmm... I can't do the things I love, or say what is running through my mind and my heart, just because of the fear of acceptance... pretty stupid... but I am going to work at that, because why hide yourself from the people you love most, it seems to me that the people you love most probably are the ones who love you for who you are so why hide what they already love???
Alyssa and I had some great conversation on the ride back regarding something I learned in Pastor Darin's sermon today, about being scared to be who we are... I find it's the hardest around people I love most. sometimes I feel like a turtle.... :-) horrible analogy I know, but I find that it is so hard for me at times to just be me. I will be all outgoing around some people yet I will completley hide in my shell out of fear of looking stupid around others... sticking my head out of the shell when I desire to be loved or accepted but not sure if I will recieve it in return is a vulnerable place to be in, which is why I find much comfort in silence and hiding :-/ hmmmm... I can't do the things I love, or say what is running through my mind and my heart, just because of the fear of acceptance... pretty stupid... but I am going to work at that, because why hide yourself from the people you love most, it seems to me that the people you love most probably are the ones who love you for who you are so why hide what they already love???
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