For the first time in awhile I'm feeling kind of speechless. I'm also feeling kind of down. Thankfully I know I have a lot to be thankful for to cheer me up. It's the last week of summer that I never really got to experience, and my classes start up next week. I have no idea if I'm ready. But I guess I have to be. :-) The 3 classes I'm taking are pretty hard core, and the fourth one only meets on 2 saturdays. Praise God, I've heard back about two of my test sections (Reading and Math) I passed both! Still waiting on my writing score, but that made me VERY happy.
I've been giving myself lots of pep talks today. Reminding myself that feelings can be strong but they don't always represent your situation. So lots of reminders that things will be okay, even when they don't feel like it.
Watching my mom in the hospital, and seeing complications keep coming up, and seeing how much these weeks have taken out of her as she is now walking with a walker for awhile. It just reminds me of how quickly your health, your life, everything that you hold dear can be taken away from you. But I've decided that it's in those tests that God sees where your heart truly lies. It's easy to have faith when everything in life is falling into place, but what happens to you when you face trials and hurdles? Who do you turn to?
All I know is that if I were to die tomorrow, there would be some things I would want to change about today. But sometimes you can't change the things that are out of your control.
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The summer sun is fading,
seasons ever changing,
and windows down,
and toes in the sand
are coming to an end.
Walking alongside the ocean,
young love is blooming everywhere.
Hearts have been broken,
words left unspoken,
no more summer breeze through my hair.
But with each season's end,
a new one begins.
Changing leaves,
and the smell of fall
are just around the bend.
So when life is changing,
life might feel different for awhile.
But don't miss the moments,
hold on tight,
because soon this too will end.
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On that note, hopefully you enjoyed my lame attempt at poetry... :-) sad... i need to pick up a guitar again... although if that were to be a song it would probably be more like a depressing slow ballad. so maybe i need to work on my piano skills instead. ;-)
I've been giving myself lots of pep talks today. Reminding myself that feelings can be strong but they don't always represent your situation. So lots of reminders that things will be okay, even when they don't feel like it.
Watching my mom in the hospital, and seeing complications keep coming up, and seeing how much these weeks have taken out of her as she is now walking with a walker for awhile. It just reminds me of how quickly your health, your life, everything that you hold dear can be taken away from you. But I've decided that it's in those tests that God sees where your heart truly lies. It's easy to have faith when everything in life is falling into place, but what happens to you when you face trials and hurdles? Who do you turn to?
All I know is that if I were to die tomorrow, there would be some things I would want to change about today. But sometimes you can't change the things that are out of your control.
_____________________________________
The summer sun is fading,
seasons ever changing,
and windows down,
and toes in the sand
are coming to an end.
Walking alongside the ocean,
young love is blooming everywhere.
Hearts have been broken,
words left unspoken,
no more summer breeze through my hair.
But with each season's end,
a new one begins.
Changing leaves,
and the smell of fall
are just around the bend.
So when life is changing,
life might feel different for awhile.
But don't miss the moments,
hold on tight,
because soon this too will end.
__________________________________
On that note, hopefully you enjoyed my lame attempt at poetry... :-) sad... i need to pick up a guitar again... although if that were to be a song it would probably be more like a depressing slow ballad. so maybe i need to work on my piano skills instead. ;-)
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