I cannot believe it has been a year since I've blogged. I find myself coming back to it in times when I'm not feeling my best. Writing has always been an outlet for me to let out my thoughts and feelings and it's been far too long.

I'm not really sure what to write about... just pondering why it is that I struggle so much with my emotions. It's amazing how whenever I feel depressed it usually stems from my perception of not feeling good enough. It's funny how one of my youth group girls at one point was surprised that I still struggle with this because I'm married now. It was cute :-) But I told her that marriage doesn't just solve all your problems and struggles... in fact, I think I'm finding it does the exact opposite. I think marriage shows some of your worst traits at times, and I know that my lack of self-acceptance is at the top of the list.

I just pray that someday I would be freed from this struggle... Sometimes in my depression I block out how God sees me because I don't believe it sometimes.

I just pray that this year I would continue my journey to overcome fear and insecurity.

Today is super bowl day, and I can't help but think that two super bowls ago my husband and I caught each other's eyes. Really missing him tonight. <3