So it's currently 9:18 p.m. on November 30th and the Nablopomono site is not working, I'm kind of sad because I really wanted to keep all my posts together, but in case it doesn't show up, I don't wanna miss my last post!

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So it's amazing how much can change in thirty days. When I first made the spontaneous decision to do this back on November 1st, I was probably at one of the lowest points in my life, wanting to just die, and be done with life. Since then God has really been working on my heart. A lot has changed. I'm learning how to let go of things, and being more careful with the things that make my emotions go haywire. Life sure isn't easy, but I am more than blessed. I have so many great friends, and have been able to do so many things.

I have truly learned this month how quickly things can change. When you write everyday and look back on those daily postings, you see how fragile life is. How things never turn out like you think, and the things that take you by surprise. You never know what is just around the bend, which gives me hope that my dreams aren't over. I'm still breathing, and this is a new chapter in my life. Looking back on that night 30 days ago when I poured my heart out into writing about how broken I was, I know I was right in my prediction. I had said that I think sometimes God lets us get to a very low point so that He can be the one to put us back together again so that way we come to a point where we have to rely completley on Him. I've been seeing that in my life.

I think Blogging will continue to be a normal part of my life now. Writing my thoughts and getting comments by some people that have impacted my life and who I have heart to heart talks with pretty regularly has been so great. They have seen the in person, bawling my eyes out side of me or the happy side of me, and now they've seen my writing part of me which seems to be a little easier to pour out my heart.

I'm really proud of all of us. Jimmy and Erica even though you guys didn't finish I'm so proud of you guys and it was so good to read what you had to say. I hope you guys might continue even if just occasionally because I loved both of your writing styles and hearing more detail about what God was doing in your lives.

Pastor Darin and Jackie, It's been fun, but I'm not gonna lie... it will be nice to blog at my leisure and not freak out when I'm being a roadie and realizing that I forgot to blog =)

So Pastor Darin, Jackie, Erica, and Jimmy- You four have been so good at giving me Truth and helping me focus on the right things in a time I have needed it most. Thank you for letting God use you to bring me closer to Him again. I love you guys!

PS: My mom is watching the news and there was some crazy lady on the news talking about how santa claus should thin down so he doesn't have an impact on child obesity. That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard today. Okay... just had to say that.