As Rachel and Bethany are giving a dramatic reading of "On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand" (haha... don't ask) I can't help but think how amazing that song is regardless of their horrible rendition (haha!!! kidding!!!)
God has been so amazing recently... it's hard to put into words... God has been surprising me, and molding me, and helping me guard my heart more. I never really noticed how much I wear my heart on my sleeve, I'm not even sure how God brought that before me, but I've been trying to keep more things between just God and I. I am still going to write about things, and talk to my girlfriends about them, but God has just been showing me what the role of a woman is. She is gentle, submissive, quiet, discerning, wise, and fears the Lord. I realize how often in my life it is so easy for me to impulsively jump into something and start up conversations when I want to talk instead of using the discernment that God calls me to use. I am trying to learn to control my impulsive nature and be patient. God knows my needs and I just need to trust in Him that if I need to talk, He will provide me an oppurtunity, but I need to be careful when and whom I share things with. As you can guess I'm talking more about guys, and not my girlfriends. I have been finding that I initiate and lead conversations far too much, and I'm learning how hard it is to truly draw a line... but God is slowly taking me through it. But if there is one thing that I can say to encourage my fellow girls it is... guard your hearts. We are precious in God's eyes and we need to make sure that we are keeping our hearts, minds, and bodies pure, because that is what God calls us to do. God loves you so much and we need to always remember that He is the only one that will fill our deepest desires. I think of the verse in Phillipians where it says:
God has been so amazing recently... it's hard to put into words... God has been surprising me, and molding me, and helping me guard my heart more. I never really noticed how much I wear my heart on my sleeve, I'm not even sure how God brought that before me, but I've been trying to keep more things between just God and I. I am still going to write about things, and talk to my girlfriends about them, but God has just been showing me what the role of a woman is. She is gentle, submissive, quiet, discerning, wise, and fears the Lord. I realize how often in my life it is so easy for me to impulsively jump into something and start up conversations when I want to talk instead of using the discernment that God calls me to use. I am trying to learn to control my impulsive nature and be patient. God knows my needs and I just need to trust in Him that if I need to talk, He will provide me an oppurtunity, but I need to be careful when and whom I share things with. As you can guess I'm talking more about guys, and not my girlfriends. I have been finding that I initiate and lead conversations far too much, and I'm learning how hard it is to truly draw a line... but God is slowly taking me through it. But if there is one thing that I can say to encourage my fellow girls it is... guard your hearts. We are precious in God's eyes and we need to make sure that we are keeping our hearts, minds, and bodies pure, because that is what God calls us to do. God loves you so much and we need to always remember that He is the only one that will fill our deepest desires. I think of the verse in Phillipians where it says:
"8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."
This is what I am working on... patience, waiting and purity. I hope that as I work on these things, that you will come alongside this journey with me of learning how to become the women that God calls us to be. I know it can be hard, but when your struggling with something grab a friend and pray. I can't even tell you how much that has been helping me. No matter how little an issue may seem, or how many times you have prayed about the same issue, just keep praying. When your anxious about something pop in a CD that relates to what your going through and sing your heart out. And sing and pray to your Saviour and only Him... these are just some things that have been helping me.
I find that God knows when we are ready and completley catches us off guard with surprises. For example the day before my late night with the highschool girls that came to stay in our dorm, I had a weird realization... God calling me to youth ministry is the only thing in my life that I have yet to doubt.. that was so weird to me... then getting to know these girls i felt God hit me on the forehead and lovingly say "Duh! The reason you have not doubted is because I have given this to you. I have given you the desires and the passion, and the heart." I just smile when I think of that.. then I go to church and as I'm leaving, one of the mother's of the girls catches me and asks if I would like to help run a monthly event and maybe a bible study... that was so out of no where but such a blessing.
Working with kids has been my escape from a world that doesn't make sense. Guiding kids when they can't find there way and loving them is when my world most makes sense. I am a whole new person. The outgoing, advice-giving, and even at times leading worship with guitar is not from me. That is not me. I am a self-concious girl with no confidence, and I am nothing without God. God has been graciously changing me though, and i know that when I work with kids anything that occurs in purely God and God alone because at times I sit back and look at myself and ask... "where did that come from?" So even though nothing ever makes sense to me, I am so blessed and thankful for this one area in my life that God reveals Himself to me so clearly. wow...
okay I'm done with this latest "book entry" but I just encourage you all to really and truly evaluate where you are in your walk with God. What in your life needs changing... and trust me... God will reveal it to you.
love you guys,
~Amanda
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